The Web of God's Love Reaches Deep
The Web of God's Love Reaches Far and Deep
22 years ago I was engaged to a woman in NYC. We went to a Pentecostal church in Greenwich Village. We were both singers and decided to become part of the music ministry. At that time, the music minister asked to take me to lunch to get to know me better. He asked me a bunch of personal questions, one of them was about God and homosexuality. I shared with him that though I was getting married, I believed that God loved everyone the same and that, in my mind, it wasn't a sin. That answer got us kicked out of that church, basically.
Almost 18 years later, a music minister in Nashville, where I live now, contacted me and wanted to have lunch. It was the same man from NYC. He wanted to apologize for his words 18 years before.
20 years ago a woman came into my vocal studio and opened her mouth to sing, but we ended up talking half her vocal lesson. She was a hoot and ended up being a good friend as well as a student. As life does, it took her into another path, and we lost touch for about 18 years. Facebook put her picture up on my "do you know this person" list. I clicked on it, and we've been meaning to have lunch for a month. Yesterday was her birthday. My mom and I and a friend went to a movie. We ended up at a movie theater we never go to and who did we bump into... You guessed it. What a birthday surprise.
My 2 best friends from college moved to NYC with me. One decided to move to DC, while the other stayed and ended up passing away with the HIV virus. As I tried desperately to get in touch with the other best friend, the wife of that friend kept intercepting the calls and finally told me not to call back. I was devastated. 25 years later, after his divorce, I found out that he never knew of those phone calls and we lost in touch because of his wife's fear of her friendship with me.
I tell you these stories because I spent many years wondering, sometimes crying, asking why... what happened?... what did I do to cause the negative happenings of my life? When all the while God had a plan. It wasn't my plan. It was a big plan that involved changing lives, changing hearts, and changing paths.
If you are in the midst of a situation in which you just simply can't understand why you are having to leave someone you love, or grieving a broken relationship, know this with me today that there is a plan--A GOD PLAN--that is so much deeper, bigger and wider than you can conceive.
And if you can let go of your desired end and leave your love in the hands of the Creator, and keep praying... your heart will heal. Who knows, some day you'll wake up to your dream having a happy ending.
22 years ago I was engaged to a woman in NYC. We went to a Pentecostal church in Greenwich Village. We were both singers and decided to become part of the music ministry. At that time, the music minister asked to take me to lunch to get to know me better. He asked me a bunch of personal questions, one of them was about God and homosexuality. I shared with him that though I was getting married, I believed that God loved everyone the same and that, in my mind, it wasn't a sin. That answer got us kicked out of that church, basically.
Almost 18 years later, a music minister in Nashville, where I live now, contacted me and wanted to have lunch. It was the same man from NYC. He wanted to apologize for his words 18 years before.
20 years ago a woman came into my vocal studio and opened her mouth to sing, but we ended up talking half her vocal lesson. She was a hoot and ended up being a good friend as well as a student. As life does, it took her into another path, and we lost touch for about 18 years. Facebook put her picture up on my "do you know this person" list. I clicked on it, and we've been meaning to have lunch for a month. Yesterday was her birthday. My mom and I and a friend went to a movie. We ended up at a movie theater we never go to and who did we bump into... You guessed it. What a birthday surprise.
My 2 best friends from college moved to NYC with me. One decided to move to DC, while the other stayed and ended up passing away with the HIV virus. As I tried desperately to get in touch with the other best friend, the wife of that friend kept intercepting the calls and finally told me not to call back. I was devastated. 25 years later, after his divorce, I found out that he never knew of those phone calls and we lost in touch because of his wife's fear of her friendship with me.
I tell you these stories because I spent many years wondering, sometimes crying, asking why... what happened?... what did I do to cause the negative happenings of my life? When all the while God had a plan. It wasn't my plan. It was a big plan that involved changing lives, changing hearts, and changing paths.
If you are in the midst of a situation in which you just simply can't understand why you are having to leave someone you love, or grieving a broken relationship, know this with me today that there is a plan--A GOD PLAN--that is so much deeper, bigger and wider than you can conceive.
And if you can let go of your desired end and leave your love in the hands of the Creator, and keep praying... your heart will heal. Who knows, some day you'll wake up to your dream having a happy ending.
Posted by Your Gay Friend's Guide Blog at 1/22/2012 10:02 AM 
Categories: love, relationship, Mental Health Relationships:Life Coach:Hypnotherapy, Voice Lessons, relationships, Psychology for an Authentic Self, sex, advice
Tags: Web of God's Love Spirituality God's Love Deep Hurt Abandonment
Categories: love, relationship, Mental Health Relationships:Life Coach:Hypnotherapy, Voice Lessons, relationships, Psychology for an Authentic Self, sex, advice
Tags: Web of God's Love Spirituality God's Love Deep Hurt Abandonment
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