The one things that went through my mind this morning was that dance of that African bird that shakes his tail feathers and butt at the female and she keeps rejecting him, and he keeps displaying more or his beauty until she is wooed to him or completely rejects him.. then he goes off to the next female. The dance continues for a long time, but once he finds a mate, they mate for life. Something like that.

But the reason I bring this up, is I think that for humans it's much less of a dance. I think there is either an attraction or there isn't. It seems when someone isn't attracted to us, we go into "momma doesn't love me mode" and we seek to show our love interest all of our good attributes to help them see our good in hopes that they will change their mind about us and love us back and be interested—damn it! It is the most unhealthy thing we can do, my friend. It makes us feel miserable and puts us in our child mode every time. And certainly takes away our power.

But mostly, it keeps us unavailable for true love or true attraction, because we are so involved in trying to "make" someone love us.

The one thing you need to know right now is that lonely or not, you have a duty to yourself to get your relationship to your body right. It's not right--right now. You are eating and drinking the wrong things. You are pretending you don't have something that will take much effort to correct, maybe because you want to wait until all of this stuff is over (job anxiety, child problems, weight issues, money problems… you name it) and you can make sure everyone knows for certain they have screwed up your life. But you have put you taking care of you on hold. No amount of yoga or reading spiritual books is going to change the patterning of eating and drinking and thinking wrong thoughts you need to do to change your life. It's a difficult road. But a relationship with a real possible love is probably not going to happen until your relationship with your own body and mind is right. 

You're pretty see-through. Until what is inside is worked out, don't expect people are going to be attracted to anger, anxiety, frustration, and the like. 

I'm being brutally honest here. Do it and you'll see change. I promise.