Depression or Gestation?

Depression or Gestation?

So many days I wake up to find that I feel lifeless and without motivation. I want to sleep the entire day away. But I plod forward with my "all too motivated" self and expectations of life. Eventually, my emotions catch up with me. I end up finding myself full throttle in my day and almost being an observer, instead of a participant in my life.

I think of the metaphor of the caterpillar. It spends most of the day crawling around the earth foraging for food. Then one day without hesitation, it finds a comfortable spot to build a cocoon, a place to gestate and transform. At one point in its development, the cells of the caterpillar are in such flux it doesn't even know if it is a winged creature or still a caterpillar. But yet its safe place to transform allows it to go through the flux and change to become a beautiful butterfly. Putting it simply, we all need time to change.

In my life i have come to the reality that sometimes a little gestation time is a great thing. I light some candles, put on my favorite meditation CD, sit in my favorite recliner or prop myself up in bed, and just blank out.  My blanket sometimes covers my head or an eye pillow keeps out all the light. The darkness feels good. Letting go of my expectations feels even better. And finding that safe place to grow, to experience Spirit, and to let good and healing download into our cells is exactly what I need.

Posted by Your Gay Friend's Guide Blog at 3/15/2010 10:26 AM
Categories: relationship Advice
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